I AM SEVENTEEN! Time seriously flies. THANK YOU TO ALL YOU CRAZY PEOPLE WHO MADE MY BIRTHDAY SO WONDERFULLY FANTASTIC! Faith, Choey, Adele, CharWang, Celine, Chloe, Beulah, Xavier, Prash, Luke thanks for coming down all the way to RJ and surprising me after training. I was really really surprised and touched. It totally made my day. Kudos to Adele who managed to somehow trick me into going back to RJ without me suspecting a thing. Actually, its amazing how I did not suspect a thing, usually this sort of thing somehow gets leaked out. I was actually surprised. Thanks for the cake (1/3 of which ended up on my face), balloons and cards! I FEEL LOVED!!
THANKS TO ALL THE REST OF Y'ALL WHO WISHED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN SOMEWAY OR ANOTHER! My OG, class, cell and all those random people out there :) I have had so much cake. But its awesome anyhow! To anyone that texted me to wish me happy birthday, I am sory I did not reply! I was being lazy but I GOT IT AND THANKS :D ISABEL CHIA: I am telling you those pictures are not meant for public viewing. It is tarnishing my image! You wouldn't lemme eat my nuggets, enjoy the massage chair and watch the tele in PEACE! Darn you! But it was awesome seeing you today!! THE ACJC PEOPLE: Thanks for singing bhappyirthday over the phone while I was in the car! It was really funny!
Its scary that I am aging so quickly part of me still wants to be a kid. I thank my daddy in heaven for bringing me through another year. He has blessed me in so many ways the past year, trials and all. I think I grew up somewhat, grown closer to God.
Yea training tomorrow, awesome. I am 17 now, its time to face the year. again.
10:42 pm;
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Monday, January 28, 2008
Its crazy. I am so exhausted from school and I have no idea why. I sleep the same amount I do as compared to last year. Yet, I am completely and totally worn out. Its not even cool. Sunday was one tiring day. Waking up at ungodly hours to rush down to church and keep getting bunged up. Anyway I just hope that at least one person was touched by the skit. It'll totally make it all worth while. Life is pretty mundane I guess, with all the crazy college life totally washing over me. I am in absolutely no mood to start on my Biology tuitorial nor study for the quiz thing. So thats why I am here.
Strength. I need it. Dear God, Please let me survive this year. Let me know what to do. Let me make the right choices. I need you.
9:13 pm;
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Wednesday, January 23, 2008
OH MY SHIT! Never did I realize tomorrow would come so super quickly. So scared and freaked out. I just pray that God will give me the peace to accept whatever results I get. (even if its not what I expect) Maybe when I look back a few months time from now, tomorrow won't seem like such a big deal. Once tomorrow is over, I can close the O level chapter of my life and look back at it with some fondness? All the crazy mugging and endless tys questions, it all comes down to a single piece of paper that is going to be given out tomorrow. wow.
I am really grateful for everyone I have whined to today and enduring all my retarded rantings.
On a sidenote, my eyebags are growing in size. I am certain its RJ. & MSN is being a total piss. IT KEEPS LOGGING OFF damn it. I am sorry if I am annoying people by logging on and off constantly.
If tomorrow you do not hear from me, I would have probably jumped off some random multi-storey car park.
8:51 pm;
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Thursday, January 17, 2008
I just finished bathing. Feels so super good. Training ends so late now ): Yea, I still have no idea if I want to stay. Its so confusing. I suppose college is kinda fun? In a weird stressful way. I am going back to Thailand in less than a month! SO EXCITING. Now that it is finalized! THUNDER! I am super happy because I have his photo in my pencil box and looking at it during lectures makes it that much more bearable!
What I know is good for me is not what I want. What the piss.
9:38 pm;
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Saturday, January 12, 2008
I am so tired that I am high most of the time. JC is so super different from Secondary. Lectures bore the life out of me and half of the time I am freaked out by the people in my class who go to the library every single free period to mug. The best part, I always thought mugging meant last minute studying for exams. Anyway its the 2nd week of school, what is there to study? Next week school gets more hectic, and it sucks so bad. No more going to J8 (my latest cool hangout. hahaha) and eating lunch. I suppose I am settling into JC and I am really quite scared about the O level results. Part of me wants to change JC but yet sometimes I feel just too lazy.
I got missions party tomorrow! oh the excitement. I really really miss Thailand and all my crazy church friends. (I don't feel like the stupidest hanging out with them)
12:07 am;
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Saturday, January 05, 2008
Orientation has been okay?(great but not so great) Anyway I have mixed feelings about the UWC thing. I think I wanted it for the wrong reasons and now I am not really prepared to go. Maybe because in the back of my brain I know there is alot of things I want to do in Singapore first. I have no idea if I even want to go for the camp. Yea I know all about the once in the lifetime opportunity, if you don't cease it. It'll just fly away. Its more like I don't want to waste my life. Its confusing. &I have better things to do with my weekend then attend some random camp. MISSIONS PARTY. Okay I am lazy and I really just want to have fun. I REALLY need to just hang out, chill and not make new friends. Its so super tiring.
Speaking of which I miss all the retarded things we used to do in MG. Like skippping down the corridors and dancing in the class.